I gave up on forcing a lot of regular writing on this blog. It felt too rushed to be able to explore any subject deeply enough. And once I copped to that it was easy to get lost again in the questions of why. Why write something public? Who am I writing for? What do I wish to accomplish with this?

Good questions. Answers? I’ve been pondering them for several weeks. Here’s what I’ve come up with.

I enjoy other people’s blogs a lot. I get a lot out of them whether they’re professional, software stuff, stories about people’s journey in life (like PearceOnEarth.com)  or inspirational writing like everything on BrainPickings.org. I get a lot out of them.

Maybe I want to contribute in the tiniest way to the blogosphere. Maybe its ego but I don’t think so. I think I just like to put things out into the world for people to discover or not. I love creating. That act is the reward in itself. If someone else finds value in it then that’s even better but I don’t usually go out of my way to help people find the things I make. Maybe that’s why I feel kind of strange about writing publicly like this. Maybe it feels like I’m trying too hard to be seen…

After a lot of contemplation, I think I’ve come down to a few core reasons to write and publish here.

First, I am a seeker. I’m always asking questions and looking for better answers. Maybe its good to document some of that. Maybe someone will find some value in it. Maybe someone will help me find better answers.

Second, I need to remind myself of any truths that I happen to stumble upon. Putting them down here will serve as a repository where I can reflect on them as needed. And making them public will help me to keep a filter on it so as to minimize the amount of bullshit I allow to seep through.

I’ve also decided I need some ground rules:
1) I’m not here to create ‘content’ or try to build a ‘following.’  I’m not selling anything or trying to be popular. I don’t need content or a following.
2) There will be no more self-imposed requirements to write on any schedule. I may write three posts per day or once annually. The only requirement is that it be truthful, useful and interesting (at least to me).
3) This blog isn’t about any one thing. It is about everything that piques my curiosity or makes my synapses light up. Ultimately I guess I could say that it does stick to the theme of my quest for self understanding, knowledge and actualization. That’s a pretty big umbrella so I think I’m covered no matter where my meandering mind and fingers may lead.

I guess I’ve realized that for this to work, I have to be the target audience. And that feels like some sort of a breakthrough.